The Vampire Diaries Monologue -

"What if I don't want to be the anchor anymore? What if I want to be the flame?"

"Damon was the lightning strike. He never asked for permission. He never asked me to save him. He just... burned. He burned down every wall I ever built. He made me feel guilty for wanting him, which only made me want him more. He was the poison and the antidote. And the worst part? The worst part is that I see myself in him. Not the grief. The rage. The part of me that wants to set the world on fire just to feel something other than this endless, gnawing cold." the vampire diaries monologue

But Damon…"

"You want to know the secret no one tells you about being the doppelgänger? It’s not the running. It’s not the dying. It’s the math. Every day, you have to calculate exactly how much of your heart to give to one brother so the other doesn't shatter. You have to measure your own happiness in teaspoons, because if you take a whole cup... someone pays for it in blood. "What if I don't want to be the anchor anymore

Then I died.